Update Update

Hey Hey party peoples! Been quite busy with school and other shit that is going down.
so first I'll start with school

So school. The shit hole of everything. The place where you get your ass up early and enter hell. It has actually turned into something i dont really care if i go, dont make a huge deal about it in the mornings anymore. Grew up from that shit. I have actually been doing surprisingly well. But i think my bad habits are coming back, because this weekend i did nothing but mope around my house and do nothing. Probably the most exciting thing was go to starbucks to get my drink. But i didn't get any homework done =( which is horrible, and i still haven't got any of it done up till now. Im just here updating my blog cause i know i haven't done it in awhile. My english class is shit. i fucking hate the indian teacher (NOT INTENDED TO BE RACIST OKAY~~!?!?! LOL~~!!) She can't even speak the english language probably so how am i suppose to fucking learn or understand what she is even assigning?! Ugh i am stll trying really hard in that class but whatever. Then in history, i have some creepy ass teacher and shit. I think i might fail that class sadly =( but i will try my best to keep on top of it ( which i am not very ontop of it right now) Then comes math. The MOST BORING SHIT ASS CLASS EVER..... buuuuuuutttttt my proff makes it way funner =) i like him, he is very good at teaching. I have an A in the course so i am quite happy =) YAYAYAYAYAY

ENOUGH ABOUT SCHOOL... what next?!...

Family: My family and i have grown since the last time i have talked on here about them. It went from me hating them and not really talking to them to talking to them abit, and now actually talking to them about anything and just being open about it, but still keeping things from them. Can't be too open about everything right?! But yea now i stay at the dinner table more, and i am more talkative at the table too. more involved =) I have grown my relationship with my mother. I actually can tell her anything. She is so close to me, and i realize what she has done and what she is doing right now to help me be a better person or get what i want =) She grants so many wishes of mine, somethat i go back on but she still does it for me even though she knows what might happen, but she does it for my happiness. But i understand that she can't do everything, but i appreciate everything she is doing for me. My step father is still a work in progress type. More or less just.. on the D.L

NEXT....

Money: My money is .. idk its going everywhere. i am sooo tempted to spent it.. there are soooooo many things to buy -drooling face- TT_____TT shoes are soo beautiful -stares into picture with passion- UGH! soo many pretty things, but so little money. As everyone knows, i am trying to save up for NYC when i go there for my vacation. It's so hard not to buy anything but its like.. i am prepping myself for nyc but yet i need money to be there and shit =PP HEHE i am too much of a shopaholic, need some will power to make me stop shopping =PP

NEXXXXXXXTTTTTTT ^_____^... i guess love life?

ITS SHIT.. yea thats it. basically nothing is going on, just nothing. nothing is going my way or ntohing is what i want it to be, ntoihing is going on just nothing. I feel as if i am wasting my time, which i dont want to be cause i have very strong feelings for this one particular person, but he doesn't even say shit. and it pisses me the hell off. its like you fucking know i like you why dont you just say you dont like me so i can stop wasting your time and mine. it makes life easier cause i can obviously see you dont fucking like me or i dont have a chance so whatever. i'd rather go after someone that i know i would have a chance with, then guessing with you and just wondering and risking whatever. lol i am trying not to say anything and just let it go, but its always on my mind and thats what is kinda making me kinda sad and confused or scared. so its wahtever

hmm waht wat nexT?.... friends?

oh gawd friends... umm so its been kinda complicated... its on then i kinda just wanted to be alone for a bit then i just do wahtever, i just hang with who asks me first. and i dont you asked me to hang out and i am really sorry i didn't reply or anything its just someone else asked me and i never text you back =( i'm really sorry and that was one bitch ass move from me, and i know i should've texted you even if it was late, cause like i say all the time, better late then never, but i ugess i wasn't myself or thinking straight. i have just been .. out of my mind. You know that i am tlaking about you, and i want to just figure things out and not get you involved in it, but i know you are strong without me cause you always say you just need you and your boyfriend? so yea its not a difference if i am there or not there right? am i right? you never mention me in your posts just you and your boyfriend all the time, the only one you can trust is your boyfriend? so what am i not allowed to be mentioned in your posts? Yea when i say so much about you, and i get nothing back. I feel soo neglected. I need you there so i can tell you my feelings so i dont have to hold it in or take it out on anyone else. Just a friend to actually say what i want. The one i like or the teachers i had the homework load i have. I want to just have girl talk with you but .. yea its not the same anymore

Ugh this is probs really lonnnggg =P forgive me for your time <33

Smile because when you smile, It brings out everything beautiful about you <3

xoxo
Vicky❤