It's finally the end well, to basically everything. Everything that has happened in the month ofJuly is about to be in the past, and it will be time to move on =) new month. So lets just end the summer with the best month and what we can make fun of the month of august =)
I'll get my tan off at the beach and go shopping. All my friends will be back from there trips, so i will finally get to hang out. I especially miss my best friend Vy <3 MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW LONELY I AM !! LOL =P love you ~~
My new obsession song is "Best thing I never had" by Beyonce <3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FHp2KgyQUFk&ob=av2e
It's absolutely adorable, makes me smile and makes me remember and just laugh at what has happen.
If anyone of you are reading this that know what the hell happened. I am sincerely sorry <3 i hope that we can forget about everything that has happen. I am sorry about everything, and as for a matter of fact, i regret everything. So lets start/finish off happy =) forget that bullshit. Cause no one needs that shit. It made me feel horrible inside and out... as much as what my feelings were (stupid me) idk what came over me, and i hope it doesn't hold or keep or change etc. what you think of me. I hope you can remember me as that same girl i use to be. That girl i am trying to get back to =/ Please forgive me for what i have sinned. I really want this to be gone so please =/? (understand if you dont =))
Ugh so summer school was only two weeks and i have to admit that i am gonna miss it. it was actually quite fun, and hey! at least i wasn't being a lazy ass and laying around in bed. i actually got up did my makeup and went to school to pass math =P. Even though my parents aren't happy i failed they are still pretty pissed at me for some sort of reason because i had an A and then i just kinda started to get lazy and now i am sitting at a C+ and i dont think they are gonna be very happy. but seriously i am trying really hard to get good on my final tomorrow, its my last day tomorrow of full hours of summer school. LETS finish it hard (yea yea thats what she said -0-) Then all i have is just friday to pick up my report card =P
Gymnastics. I know i have only been there for 2 weeks, but i am really happy with the friends i made there, and what i have learned to do in gymnastics. I hope it helps me in cheerleading =P yesh ^_____^ i have improved on the stuff i already knew how to do, and now i am learning new things =) love learning new things.
Summer is slowly ending sadly, but my goal for the new year. As much as i know its crazy to hear this and i know its very hard to do, but i will try my best. I will try my best to stay away from starting shit/drama and just get some good grades. I'll still have a little bad ass in me (like skipping classes once in awhile =P) But hey! you only live once. Make it worth living for. Cause once your born your already slowly dying. So just live the way you want live to be lived. Cause your already dying in a way =P act liek it would be your last day. Be happy =) find yourself, what makes you happy. If your not happy then get a paper write the things you dont like about yourself and on the back of it, write how your going to fix it. And if it can't be fixed then your ognna have to except that right now in your life that can't be fixed but it will be fixed at one point hopefully =) just believe in yourself and you will get somewhere ^___^
ugh well i better get to studying for my final cause i am not studying at all (bad me=() but yea Love you all
Smile, and take care cause i care <3
xoxo
Vicky ❤
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
SISTAR!
Baby stop breaking my heart
Your heard me? No more “next time”
I hope you got that boy
Hey girls, it’s gonna be alright
Hey boys, better make it right
Hey girls, we got ya back
You said you knew even if I said nothing
You know my heart somehow, right?
So I believed, I was patient, and I waited
You said you wouldn’t leave me by myself
You promised, pinky-swore
So why are you lying again?
Is it that hard to say “I love you”?
It’s just one phrase
You keep changing, I’m becoming exhausted
As time passes I get more confused
The more I like you, the more I’m hurt
(Why you trippin’ boy?) Look at me
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
You don’t know love, my heart hurts
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
There’s no way you know how I feel
Don’t let me down boy
I’m going crazy because of you
Why ya try ‘n play games with me?
Because of you everyday
I go up and down several times
Don’t let me down
I cry every night (no, no)
Stop breaking my heart
You don’t know how I feel, your eyes wander
What I got, what you lookin’ for?
Don’t look at other women
This is my last warning (oh no)
This gon’ be the last time
Is it that hard to say “I love you”?
It’s just one phrase
You keep changing, I’m becoming exhausted
As time passes I get more confused
The more I like you, the more I’m hurt
(Why you trippin’ boy?) Look at me
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
You don’t know love, my heart hurts
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
There’s no way you know how I feel
Don’t let me down boy
Woo boy, the more I like you
Woo boy, do you know how I feel?
The small whispers of my heart
The warm looks you give me sometimes
I just need one of those, I only want you
You still don’t know my heart
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
You don’t know love, my heart hurts
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
There’s no way you know how I feel
Don’t let me down boy
Ma boy
Your heard me? No more “next time”
I hope you got that boy
Hey girls, it’s gonna be alright
Hey boys, better make it right
Hey girls, we got ya back
You said you knew even if I said nothing
You know my heart somehow, right?
So I believed, I was patient, and I waited
You said you wouldn’t leave me by myself
You promised, pinky-swore
So why are you lying again?
Is it that hard to say “I love you”?
It’s just one phrase
You keep changing, I’m becoming exhausted
As time passes I get more confused
The more I like you, the more I’m hurt
(Why you trippin’ boy?) Look at me
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
You don’t know love, my heart hurts
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
There’s no way you know how I feel
Don’t let me down boy
I’m going crazy because of you
Why ya try ‘n play games with me?
Because of you everyday
I go up and down several times
Don’t let me down
I cry every night (no, no)
Stop breaking my heart
You don’t know how I feel, your eyes wander
What I got, what you lookin’ for?
Don’t look at other women
This is my last warning (oh no)
This gon’ be the last time
Is it that hard to say “I love you”?
It’s just one phrase
You keep changing, I’m becoming exhausted
As time passes I get more confused
The more I like you, the more I’m hurt
(Why you trippin’ boy?) Look at me
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
You don’t know love, my heart hurts
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
There’s no way you know how I feel
Don’t let me down boy
Woo boy, the more I like you
Woo boy, do you know how I feel?
The small whispers of my heart
The warm looks you give me sometimes
I just need one of those, I only want you
You still don’t know my heart
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
You don’t know love, my heart hurts
Oh ma boy, oh ma boy, baby
There’s no way you know how I feel
Don’t let me down boy
Ma boy
Monday, July 11, 2011
down..
Words can't describe what i feel... but since i feel like blogging i will try to express it..
i feel so torn apart. i feel like once i think things are going so well they just end up not.... they start hurting me, or leave me behind in the dust. Used like some kind of tissue or used to get over something, so whatever we shared was just some kind of joke. My heart feels like it never wants to be loved or is scared to be loved. I don't have the strength to keep trying to pull myself up again. Because if i try to, and i try to believe i wont be ripped apart... it happens and i go down hill... once again.
I can't be the same as i was before =( not until i find what i really need to go on in life.
That makes me feel like shit. i want to go back.. i wish i never was this, or have done the things i have done.
"should i? Should've? What if..." these are the words that makes us hesitate in life. i wish i could've done better. i wish i could get what i want. i know i sound selfish but i want it to always go my way... or at least most of the time. and i am sure everyone can't deny that they would like that to happen to... =/
All my happiness is gone. i want it back, but i don't think i will ever get it back. Whoever took it, i want to say that i am in so much pain. i wish you could see what i am really going through. No one see's what i really feel or really want to act like. i hind it from everyone, so i wont hurt them. If i ever show what i really want to unleash ...... i don't think i would be able to stop myself once i start.... i don't want people to be hurt, so i will keep it hidden.
My body is slowly breaking down....
xoxo
Vicky❤
i feel so torn apart. i feel like once i think things are going so well they just end up not.... they start hurting me, or leave me behind in the dust. Used like some kind of tissue or used to get over something, so whatever we shared was just some kind of joke. My heart feels like it never wants to be loved or is scared to be loved. I don't have the strength to keep trying to pull myself up again. Because if i try to, and i try to believe i wont be ripped apart... it happens and i go down hill... once again.
I can't be the same as i was before =( not until i find what i really need to go on in life.
That makes me feel like shit. i want to go back.. i wish i never was this, or have done the things i have done.
"should i? Should've? What if..." these are the words that makes us hesitate in life. i wish i could've done better. i wish i could get what i want. i know i sound selfish but i want it to always go my way... or at least most of the time. and i am sure everyone can't deny that they would like that to happen to... =/
All my happiness is gone. i want it back, but i don't think i will ever get it back. Whoever took it, i want to say that i am in so much pain. i wish you could see what i am really going through. No one see's what i really feel or really want to act like. i hind it from everyone, so i wont hurt them. If i ever show what i really want to unleash ...... i don't think i would be able to stop myself once i start.... i don't want people to be hurt, so i will keep it hidden.
My body is slowly breaking down....
xoxo
Vicky❤
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