Okay so i get the text at like 2 something in the morning, but the thing is my phone was dead so i didn't even know i got the text till i fully charged it in the morning. Anyway, so right nao i'm confused by it or just about to burst out in tears cause it hurts.
I wanna know what i "lied" about, so i could at least try to fix it or at the very least, give my story on it. But no you had to go off and just take whatever i lied about and believe it, and not confront me about it, and just not even say anything to me except on the text "sorry, i dont think we can chat anymore. I know you lied".
Wow gee thanks alot, how am i suppose to know what i lied about, and that was at random. I am actually kinda pissed but sad. I can't believe you wouldn't talk to me about this, but better yet, who the fuck told you i lied or some shit.
I never lied to you at all. What could i even lie to you about? answer me that. ugh well i have no idea what i am going to do but i hope i can fix it and be able to get it out there...
i'm done, its the end of the fucking summer and there's fucking drama. Wow thanks god. i guess i can't leave this shit can i? how about i just kill myself so i dont have to fucking be around this shit anymore. I never asked for it. That was the one thing i wanted to avoid was drama. I wanted to go all M.I.A and shit so i dont have to deal with it. just focus on my studies. but no.
FUCK MY FUCKING LIFE... IMMA FUCKING KILL MYSELF
xoxo
Vicky❤
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Bubble Pop!
Bubble pop, bubble pop
From the beginning to the end, don’t replace me
Or I’d rather meet another person
(Ooh ooh you)
Don’t complain
(Ooh ooh you)
What if I go out late at night to play?
What if I don’t answer my phone?
(Ooh ooh hey)
There ain’t any better than me for you
(Hey boy)
Don’t wish for more of me (ma boy)
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
(Ooh boy)
This about this (hey boy)
What do you see when you look at me? (ma boy)
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
You pretty little words when you smile politely
I don’t call you often (Huh huh)
You and me are doing well hey (Hey hey hey)
Bubble bubble pop pop
(Ooh ooh ooh)
What if I laugh sometimes when I’m depressed?
What if I suddenly don’t like you?
(Ooh ooh ooh)
Why do you keep doing that? You never knew me
(Hey boy) There ain’t any better than me for you
Don’t wish for more of me (ma boy)
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
(Ooh boy)
This about this (hey boy)
What do you see when you look at me? (ma boy)
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
There ain’t any better than me for you
Don’t wish for more of me
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
(Ooh boy)
This about this (hey boy)
What do you see when you look at me? (ma boy)
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
From the beginning to the end, don’t replace me
Or I’d rather meet another person
(Ooh ooh you)
Don’t complain
(Ooh ooh you)
What if I go out late at night to play?
What if I don’t answer my phone?
(Ooh ooh hey)
There ain’t any better than me for you
(Hey boy)
Don’t wish for more of me (ma boy)
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
(Ooh boy)
This about this (hey boy)
What do you see when you look at me? (ma boy)
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
You pretty little words when you smile politely
I don’t call you often (Huh huh)
You and me are doing well hey (Hey hey hey)
Bubble bubble pop pop
(Ooh ooh ooh)
What if I laugh sometimes when I’m depressed?
What if I suddenly don’t like you?
(Ooh ooh ooh)
Why do you keep doing that? You never knew me
(Hey boy) There ain’t any better than me for you
Don’t wish for more of me (ma boy)
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
(Ooh boy)
This about this (hey boy)
What do you see when you look at me? (ma boy)
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
There ain’t any better than me for you
Don’t wish for more of me
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
(Ooh boy)
This about this (hey boy)
What do you see when you look at me? (ma boy)
Your heart lies are like bubbles
Bubble bubble bubble pop
Bubble bubble pop pop
Do You Remember?
In the end of relationships there are two things that can happen. Either you fight for it or you let it fade away.
Do you remember.
There's a moment in every relationship where couples will be tested.
For the most part, it will end. If you truly love that person you will find a solution to something that has no answer if it continues to hurt you...
I know these words will never reach your ears or better yet, touch you heart.
Memories for now, its all i have.
A love story, that's what we were.
It started out like any love story, two complete strangers with two different paths.
Do you remember how we first met, it was at Mcdonalds (LOL!).
But the location doesn't mean as much as our feelings.
Our memories together has kept me strong enough to fight for this very moment with you.
I enjoyed our walks from your house to mine.
All the memories we shared walking down the same path daily with each other.
We watch how the seasons change.
From the green leaves, all the way to the vibrant colors of fall.
Even to the powder of white snow that coated our held hands together, while trying to keep each other warm.
I love the moments you held me from insecurities.
When i was scared walking by myself.
There are many places that we shared precious moments, such as enjoying a simple meal, but a meal was more than a meal with you.
Do you remember noodle box?
We shared all the times laughing, eating, connecting, or even making up after a fight.
Sometimes bubble tea was that apology and the words were unnecessary.
Do you remember classes together?
I felt more motivated to learn just because you were next to me, pushing me, guiding me.
The time where we thought were getting yelled at for talking so much.
The times where we sat in front, as if we were over achievers.
Do you remember the bus rides together.
We made bus rides fun, by sitting in our special spots.
Even if the weather was gloomy, I only had to look at the smile on your face to see the sun.
Just staying with you, waiting for the bus to come, made me appreciate each other.
Do you remember my house?
The place where we confessed each others feelings.
the place where you embraced me in your arms, when you said i was the cause of your butterflies.
The place where i sang to you in front of our friends.
The place where we cuddled and comforted each other.
The beginning you taught how to care.
You taught me how to open up
And most importantly..
You taught me how to love
Do you remember any of that?
xoxo
Vicky❤
Do you remember.
There's a moment in every relationship where couples will be tested.
For the most part, it will end. If you truly love that person you will find a solution to something that has no answer if it continues to hurt you...
I know these words will never reach your ears or better yet, touch you heart.
Memories for now, its all i have.
A love story, that's what we were.
It started out like any love story, two complete strangers with two different paths.
Do you remember how we first met, it was at Mcdonalds (LOL!).
But the location doesn't mean as much as our feelings.
Our memories together has kept me strong enough to fight for this very moment with you.
I enjoyed our walks from your house to mine.
All the memories we shared walking down the same path daily with each other.
We watch how the seasons change.
From the green leaves, all the way to the vibrant colors of fall.
Even to the powder of white snow that coated our held hands together, while trying to keep each other warm.
I love the moments you held me from insecurities.
When i was scared walking by myself.
There are many places that we shared precious moments, such as enjoying a simple meal, but a meal was more than a meal with you.
Do you remember noodle box?
We shared all the times laughing, eating, connecting, or even making up after a fight.
Sometimes bubble tea was that apology and the words were unnecessary.
Do you remember classes together?
I felt more motivated to learn just because you were next to me, pushing me, guiding me.
The time where we thought were getting yelled at for talking so much.
The times where we sat in front, as if we were over achievers.
Do you remember the bus rides together.
We made bus rides fun, by sitting in our special spots.
Even if the weather was gloomy, I only had to look at the smile on your face to see the sun.
Just staying with you, waiting for the bus to come, made me appreciate each other.
Do you remember my house?
The place where we confessed each others feelings.
the place where you embraced me in your arms, when you said i was the cause of your butterflies.
The place where i sang to you in front of our friends.
The place where we cuddled and comforted each other.
The beginning you taught how to care.
You taught me how to open up
And most importantly..
You taught me how to love
Do you remember any of that?
xoxo
Vicky❤
Sunday, August 7, 2011
First Love
I guess it's a part of life, you know?
Being young, naive
We spend our whole childhood, crushing on someone, not even just looking for someone to be with
I guess its natural though. Sort of like an instinct
At a young age we want to be loved, and we look for that companionship and i dunno about you, but when i was with him, it felt right, and no we weren't together, but i knew he was the one
Can you be in love with someone your not in a relationship with?
To be honest, i dont know
But then again, that feeling he gave me was un describable
Anyways long story short i finally got the courage and talked to him, and i made him my boo
It was perfect
Nothing, i mean nothing was getting in between us
Late night phone calls, no sleep, i mean dropping grades that came with it
Gifts, pictures, letter, texts, anything. You name it, we did it
Memories, we had a box full
Its funny, cause we would joke around about how many kids we would have, where we would live, or even getting married
Looking back at it, it was kind of dumb
But i believed with all my heart, that he would be the one that i would be with forever
Until the fights started happening
Little by little we started to fade
Then all of a sudden it just ended, you know?
I didn't just loose my boyfriend, i lost my best friend
I dont know what hurts more, that we dont speak or when we speak its not he same
I guess i knew the risk of falling for your friend, but you never think that your going to breakup with them, you know?
you always think its just going to be him and you, you and her
Sometimes i just wanna tell you that i miss you
Sometimes i just wanna hug you, i wanna kiss you, or even just have a conversation, or see how your doing.
Do you think of me?
Do you remember our first kiss?
Do you remember how you were looking at me with those reckless eyes, and you told me you loved me for the first time?
Cause i remember yours
How could i forget
And i just want you to know that i still think about you, from time to time
I guess what i'm trying to say is...
You never forget your...
First Love
xoxo
Vicky❤
Being young, naive
We spend our whole childhood, crushing on someone, not even just looking for someone to be with
I guess its natural though. Sort of like an instinct
At a young age we want to be loved, and we look for that companionship and i dunno about you, but when i was with him, it felt right, and no we weren't together, but i knew he was the one
Can you be in love with someone your not in a relationship with?
To be honest, i dont know
But then again, that feeling he gave me was un describable
Anyways long story short i finally got the courage and talked to him, and i made him my boo
It was perfect
Nothing, i mean nothing was getting in between us
Late night phone calls, no sleep, i mean dropping grades that came with it
Gifts, pictures, letter, texts, anything. You name it, we did it
Memories, we had a box full
Its funny, cause we would joke around about how many kids we would have, where we would live, or even getting married
Looking back at it, it was kind of dumb
But i believed with all my heart, that he would be the one that i would be with forever
Until the fights started happening
Little by little we started to fade
Then all of a sudden it just ended, you know?
I didn't just loose my boyfriend, i lost my best friend
I dont know what hurts more, that we dont speak or when we speak its not he same
I guess i knew the risk of falling for your friend, but you never think that your going to breakup with them, you know?
you always think its just going to be him and you, you and her
Sometimes i just wanna tell you that i miss you
Sometimes i just wanna hug you, i wanna kiss you, or even just have a conversation, or see how your doing.
Do you think of me?
Do you remember our first kiss?
Do you remember how you were looking at me with those reckless eyes, and you told me you loved me for the first time?
Cause i remember yours
How could i forget
And i just want you to know that i still think about you, from time to time
I guess what i'm trying to say is...
You never forget your...
First Love
xoxo
Vicky❤
Missing You
So i know or i think that you sometimes read my blogs, so i hope you see this.
all the fights and shit we went through, i'm sorry for all that. I want to be honest, and yea i wasn't really serious about you, but yea i guess i sorta played you like you said, and i'm sorry. i know i shouldn't have done that but i did, because well i just felt bad or i was just lonely at the time, and there was someone there for me, and yea i just basically never wanted anyone to leave me. because i felt so loved and special when you were there for me or with me. and all the things we planned i actually was looking forward to it, i know you probably dont believe me but yea i'm saying the truth right now.
Right now, i kinda miss talking to you, and i hate the fact that when we talk, its not the same, you always just ruin it. i wish when we talked that we would finally just talk normally without you just hating on me or trying to start a fight or not even knowing it that we start fighting because of what you said ! ugh it just makes me frustrated TT______TT BLAH!
so bascially i just wantd to say that i'm sorry, and i want you to answer my texts again or my messages on facebook so we can become frrineds again =) i know we might not be as close or something but i at least wanna be friends instead of in this shit, like we aren't talking anymore so yea...
thats it
xoxo
Vicky❤
all the fights and shit we went through, i'm sorry for all that. I want to be honest, and yea i wasn't really serious about you, but yea i guess i sorta played you like you said, and i'm sorry. i know i shouldn't have done that but i did, because well i just felt bad or i was just lonely at the time, and there was someone there for me, and yea i just basically never wanted anyone to leave me. because i felt so loved and special when you were there for me or with me. and all the things we planned i actually was looking forward to it, i know you probably dont believe me but yea i'm saying the truth right now.
Right now, i kinda miss talking to you, and i hate the fact that when we talk, its not the same, you always just ruin it. i wish when we talked that we would finally just talk normally without you just hating on me or trying to start a fight or not even knowing it that we start fighting because of what you said ! ugh it just makes me frustrated TT______TT BLAH!
so bascially i just wantd to say that i'm sorry, and i want you to answer my texts again or my messages on facebook so we can become frrineds again =) i know we might not be as close or something but i at least wanna be friends instead of in this shit, like we aren't talking anymore so yea...
thats it
xoxo
Vicky❤
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