It's been a long time

Hello blog,

It's been a long time since I've wrote a blog on this blog thing I have. To be honest, i kinda forgot i had it. I didn't mean to stop but my ex was a very controlling person and told me i wasn't allowed to blog anymore.

To update on the past 2 and a half years of my life goes like this....
I got into a relationship with one of the guys i talked about in a previous post. I will not write the name but if you know me in real life, you would know who it is. At the start of the relationship it seemed all good and well, a few people didn't trust him but of course, being the stupid little asian girl i was, i didn't listen to what anyone had to say. I did what i wanted. They were right though, he was a controlling person and he wasn't good for me. He ended being someone that i never imagined id be with. Over the course of time we were together he became worse. I lied to him and he slowly turned into some psycho. He wanted to check my phone constantly, monitor who i was talking to each day, how much i spent time with my parents, and etc. He did everything. The most hurtful thing was that at the very start of the relationship i had to stop talking to one of the most important people in my life, he was someone so special to me that when my ex told me i couldn't speak to him anymore i cried for hours and tried to fight for who i wanted to talk to. It was one of the worse things that has ever happened.

Fast forward 2 and a half years later....
I had moved across the country to be with my ex thinking it would get better but it only got worse. I started talking to the guy i wasn't allowed to talk to to try to get some advice but that ended up bringing back all these feelings i use to have for him. I began to realize that I was with the wrong person and i needed to be with the right one. I grew the courage to tell my parents that i needed to come home and that my well being was not safe anymore being in another country. On October 2nd I called my parents and we booked a flight for me to come home on October 4th. I came home on the 4th of October by plane the landed in Vancouver to then go on a ferry back to Victoria. I went home and cleaned myself up because I had a date with the guy of my dreams <3. We were going to go over to his friends house to spend the night there. There we had our first kiss and we became official that night too. It was probably the greatest feeling I've ever felt, knowing that I was with the right guy and that I could trust him. I had strong feelings for him for so long that I knew that this was real.

When I first saw him i didn't really see see him because i was in the front of R's car seat and B was in the back. I first saw saw him when we had gotten out of the car to go to 711 to get some stuff. I was nervous and was shy to show myself, my heart literally felt like it had stopped when I looked into his eyes, i kinda pulled away from eye contact just because I felt like i was going to faint haha. but yenno it blew over and we hugged each other. It was a chill first night home but even though not much happened it was still by far the best night i had in years. I remember when he first kissed me on the cheek. We were sitting on this like big couch that only fit the two of us. It was in like the main part of the house where the tv was. We were watching family guy and we had been cuddling for quite some time. I knew that both of us wanted to kiss each other its just I wanted him to do it first. He eased into it by kissing me on the cheek first, but then after that he kissed me on the lips. GREATEST FEELING EVER. I had goosebumps and butterflies, I was literally freaking out on the inside but keeping my cool on the outside so that he wouldn't think i was some kind of freak. It was the start of something new and real, something that i know will last forever. We hadn't become official yet and that's all i was waiting for was for that one question that would make everything official. It was much later into the night, we had gone upstairs because the dog had been let inside, (me being scared of dogs I couldn't handle being around it) and we talked for a bit and then it happened and yea, i freaked out again on the inside but looked calm and collected on the outside. This was the start of everything. Nothing else happened really, we kissed more but I was a shy little asian girl lol so i was too shy and nervous to makeout fully.

It's been the best month ever since i got back. This Wednesday November 5th will be our first month anniversary together. We have a date at milestones <3

I'll keep  on updating but for now, this is all I want to say

GOODNIGHT BLOG WORLD

xoxo.

Vicky Lee <3