My Life Will Go On

*I wrote this awhile ago and I forgot to post it but here it is anyway* (This was when I was trying to get over things)

Hello blogging world,

I know its been a very long time since the last time I have actually sad down and typed my whole life out on here. Well here it comes, just regurgitate all over this page.

As you may know, I have broken up with my boyfriend. We separated on January 30 at around 10:30pm over the computer.
First of all, breaking up with someone like me over the computer just shows that you can't do it in person, or in other words, you dont have the balls to do it straight to my face cause you and I both know you won't be able to handle my crying face and emotion to try to make you stay with me.

But anyway...

That feeling that next morning waking up knowing that we were over, and getting to school, seeing you but you just ignore me as if I was nothing to you anymore. Not even just a "Hi". The feeling I had was horrible. It felt like my heart was being ripped out and stomped on, over and over again, never stopping and being smashed against the ground.

Your attention that I once had, was gone. The way you use to arrive at school and I saw you with a smile on your face saying you were glad to see me, and giving me a kiss to ensure that I knew you loved me, just gone. It was over. The sad part of it is that I actually tried so hard to get you back. I tried to reason with you, call you, text you, grab you in the middle of the hallway to try to talk with you, everything but nothing seemed to work. You wouldn't hear me out or I think you didn't have the confidence or pride to even hear me out, cause you knew I was always going to be right. Your word against mine was nothing, a piece of worthless shit. You know how much I love you, then and now, but you still think you have so much pride. I feel so sorry for you. I wanted to get back together with you, but now that my best friend and friends have made me realize, that I'm way too good for a loser like you.

Yea, that may seem harsh, but you even know it. Common, you the loser kid that tries to fit in, but gets shut out, always having to walk around, figuring out where to hang out or wondering who will even accept you. Compared to a girl like me, the one that is friendly and tried to be your friend, that help you at least have a rep. Without me, you would be nothing. There were so many times where I could've broken up with you, but a voice inside my head told me to keep waiting it out, and to just see if you would get better at being in a relationship. Time after time, I actually told you what to do and say in the relationship, which is very sad, but yet you never listened. It seems like you didn't even want to try, you just wanted to keep getting it in with me, because you knew how much I was attached to you. The only thing that I consider is us talking it out and being friends again, just friends. I dont think your fit to be in a relationship honestly, but I hope you can possibly come over your childish acts and build our friendship again.