First Love

I guess it's a part of life, you know? 
Being young, naive
We spend our whole childhood, crushing on someone, not even just looking for someone to be with 
I guess its natural though. Sort of like an instinct 
At a young age we want to be loved, and we look for that companionship and i dunno about you, but when i was with him, it felt right, and no we weren't together, but i knew he was the one 
Can you be in love with someone your not in a relationship with? 
To be honest, i dont know 
But then again, that feeling he gave me was un describable 
Anyways long story short i finally got the courage and talked to him, and i made him my boo
It was perfect 
Nothing, i mean nothing was getting in between us 
Late night phone calls, no sleep, i mean dropping grades that came with it 
Gifts, pictures, letter, texts, anything. You name it, we did it 
Memories, we had a box full 
Its funny, cause we would joke around about how many kids we would have, where we would live, or even getting married 
Looking back at it, it was kind of dumb 
But i believed with all my heart, that he would be the one that i would be with forever 
Until the fights started happening 
Little by little we started to fade 
Then all of a sudden it just ended, you know? 
I didn't just loose my boyfriend, i lost my best friend 
I dont know what hurts more, that we dont speak or when we speak its not he same 
I guess i knew the risk of falling for your friend, but you never think that your going to breakup with them, you know?
you always think its just going to be him and you, you and her 
Sometimes i just wanna tell you that i miss you 
Sometimes i just wanna hug you, i wanna kiss you, or even just have a conversation, or see how your doing. 
Do you think of me? 
Do you remember our first kiss? 
Do you remember how you were looking at me with those reckless eyes, and you told me you loved me for the first time? 
Cause i remember yours 
How could i forget 
And i just want you to know that i still think about you, from time to time 
I guess what i'm trying to say is... 
You never forget your...


First Love


xoxo


Vicky❤